third sunday

NO
not again
NO NO
Lie awake, pain
NO NOT AGAIN
gasping mouth agape,
snoring nightmares no air-
Pillow under head, breath steadily
It is bad to think of it, unawareness impossible,
Slow Steady now, day of rest sunday, no panic, sleep if you want to,
DO NOT if you don't, won't, can't,. Like a plant, let the world move on.
calm, stay in shape,
lie on the side, pull up the knees.


At eight, awake,
grey overcast, look at the window reflecting the sky on the other side of the yard,
through the bedroom window,
from the bed.
day begins
clean teeth

in the bathroom,
make coffee,
chat to the dear son,
he is talking about Pluto's moon,
and how Pluto is much the same size
as the Moon,
and Pluto's moon,
is much the same size as

Pluto