tension

This is a solitary deal now, the daily loneliness is harder to deal with than suspected. Getting up alone is not so bad, the preparations for the day dealt with in a state close to sleep. Reading the news realise that everything is seen through the eyes of a person who does not talk much, who only has few contacts with others. The problems of the world seem distant, even though things there are dreadful now. The assumption that one is on the winning side has always been fallacious for the one side or the other.

After washing the floor in the little kitchen cuddle for a while with the cat. She is very affectionate today. Read the news and take a short nap. The cat purrs loudly all the while. The wife has left the house to go to her work, as the doors crash loudly in the passageway informs. The cat starts to complain almost at once. Let her in, she is happy. Give her a spoonful of food, she is happier still. She digs her claws into the Levi's -clad legs and causes pain, then she jumps up onto the human lap, purring all the while. She is oblivious of any discomfort she may have caused.

Leave the house, the cat looks out of the window with eyes wide open. She may be concerned. Take a walk around the town, stopping of at a café. Play a game of world as the coffee gets cold.

Return home, the cat hears the clink of the keys and appears in the window again. Inside she is all purrs and rubbing her back against the legs. She appears to be happy to have company again.

There are things that need doing, but write these notes instead. Loneliness is a difficult thing to deal with, it is hard to spend much time with people without there being tension.