saturday alone

awake to a buzzing in the head, early daylight, the winter is over.
exhaustion, and that after having slept.
make a cup of coffee
the buzzing on the right hand side of the head is worse now.
the right side governs the left hand
sinister
sinster
sinstra
who knows?

They are all asleep
the wife the son and the cat
their untidiness everywhere
it is nothing to come home to

this feeling that things have come to a head
this feeling has been there before
it is not so that things are not like that anymore