The early and optimistic awakening ended after breakfast with a shivering attack and some pain in the legs. Also, there was dizziness and a general faintness. It is sad, but it is now a quarter to eleven and a large part of the day has been lost to the unconsciousness that was not experienced last night. Yesterday evening there was what turned out to be a curious event. The prize for cultural excellence was awarded to the photographer who runs the local photographic gallery. It was a strange event with strange speeches referring to other's greatness, all marked by a failure to exactly quantify the reason for the decision. It was a pleasant and showy event.
There may be another one of these low periods approaching, the ones that were so present a few months ago. A personal feeling of depression, even though it is absolutely clear that there is no real reason for it. It will either get worse or go away. The weather outside is grey. It is necessary to go out and take a walk, to drive away the stiffness in the legs, and the feeling of omnipresent hatred here in this huge house with only two people and a cat in it.
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